It hits me at strange times. I all of a moment remember that I don’t have to rush home and why. I can relax in the moment. Teddy is with the person who will be his best friend, if he behaves himself. Bob is at peace.
Even now, after months, I get this flash back to the times when I had one eye on the clock, with part of my mind being on having left Bob with a volunteer from Tidewell Hospice . Was Bob okay with that
? Did he interact? Did any of that really matter . I could be sure that he was safe, but I was still anxious. Funny how one flash back can produce such intense memories. But that darkness passes because I am with people who love me and I am safe , too.