It is still so new to me , even after a year and a half. Not thinking about having to be home at a certain time, not worried that I have been away too long,not hearing an emergency vehicle and worried that it is in front
of my house. It is a peaceful feeling to know that noodle is with his best friend, and I can relax and be in the moment. I think that is the hardest thing about being a care giver. Not being in the moment when you are not with the care receiver. I didn’t
even think that I was not fully engaged when I wasn’t with Bob, but now I know that I always had part of me thinking about him. I had a full day at our congregations Women’s Retreat and now that I am home, I realize that I didn’t think of
home all day. It’s bitter sweet.