ON THE BACK BURNER

4:25, not 4:30 or better ,yet,6 o'clock, which is when I would like to get up. 4:25 A.M. Why is my internal clock set so early. I open one eye in he morning and look at the digital clock. 4:25. Bob is lucky. He sleeps later. 5 or 6 ,usually. I sometimes will go into the Lania ,open the vertical blinds and look out on a black golf course. I look to see if any neighbors on the other side of the course have a light on. In season,I do see a number of lights. It's good to know that I am not the only one up. Now that the snow birds have left, though, it is just one dark blackness that I see across the course. I am always early for everything. If I am not early, I feel as if I am late. That puts a lot of pressure on me. I wait a lot . I am a precise leaver of the house. I tell myself what time I have to leave to get some place, I check MaoQuest for driving times. I watch the clock and then I leave five minutes before I have to. I say that it takes me that additional time to walk to the car, get in it and put on my seat belt.I think this is slightly paranoid. Some people work on being on time, I will work on being late. Relax, take a deep breathe,OK. Now post my entry. Oh wait, that message was for me.

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01.12 | 14:15

Safe travels. See you soon. sally

04.07 | 12:10

I read the last page first too. It’s a family curse.

22.05 | 12:38

so glad youre here mom!

29.08 | 17:45

Don't quite know how this got to me but it was on the top line of my computer (not in email) But I really enjoyed it. I truly admire you.