Every now and then, I am structure with how unfair life can be and how little control we actually have . We can choose a lot of our actions. Like being helpful, loving,kind,generous. But when it comes to being able to choose living over dying, we sometimes
find ourselves asking "why did that happen". I can reach out and physically touch two people who have life defining illness and another who is physically further away, but still in my loop. I look for reasons , if not for answers. There is the argument that
there are a lot of really bad people in the world. How can they live a longer life hurting people , when the people that I am thinking of are good people , who will have a struggle to stay with us. In Judaism we are encouraged to struggle with the why, to
ask questions , to look for answers. I am struggling and I don't know where to look for the why.